Birthdayz .. .. ..

I hav thiz Curse, that If someone tells me hiz/her Birthday, I cant forget It. A while ago, I wished my favorite person In the whole world, a very Happy 15th Birthday. Thiz Iz one person who haz a Birthday, I want to remember. We dont meet In-person so we talk via messages. Giving her my best wishes, I turn to face my Own Date Of Birth. My 1st thought Iz, "how many people would remember the day thiz year?"

I wonder how many people mean It when they say "Happy Birthday." Seriously, I've seen hundreds of people at Birthday parties, nd they all say It. Do they really meant It or are they tryin to be Polite? I'll be honest, I didnt wish my brother a happy birthday thiz year.

Why? I hav alwayz Envied my brother, he seems to be capable of doin everythin Perfectly!! He controls my life. I get the feeling he doesnt want me to be "Me." Thiz year, I didnt wish him because I didnt want to lie.

I like Birthdayz, az long az they are nOt mine. Others happiness haz become a little Important to me Over the years. It'll be my Birthday in 48hrs, nd I dont want Anyone to wish me unless they truly mean It.